Heqet & The Frog People

Heket/Hekat/Heqt is a fertility god symbolized by the frog in ancient Egyptian times. Strangely enough the frog is also known to have caused infestations, recorded in biblical history as one of the Ten Plagues of Egypt. “Heqet” also happens to be the high-pitched phonetic sound that frogs make.

This might sound strange but… I once met who I suspect could have been Heqet & the frog people when I was unconscious in an accident as a teenager. They were speaking in a bizarre chromatically descending percussive tone, like when sliding quickly up in pitch to, say, a little above middle C, and then slowly moving back downwards to lower bass notes. It was strange. No discernible message was communicated, if any at all. A few minutes later I came to. That’s all!

Heqet (Ḥeqet, Ḥeḳet; also Ḥeqtit, Ḥeḳtit) is an Egyptian goddess of fertility, identified with Hathor, represented in the form of a frog[1] To the Egyptians, the frog was an ancient symbol of fertility, related to the annual flooding of the Nile. Heqet was originally the female counterpart of Khnemu, or the wife of Khnemu by whom she became the mother of Heru-ur.[2]

The name is written as ḥqt with the determinative “frog” (I7),[3] or alternatively as ḥqtyt with the “egg” (goddess) determinative (H8).[2] Its Middle Egyptian proununciation may have been close to /ħaˈqaːtat/, whence possibly the name of Greek Hecate ( Ἑκάτη).[4]


The beginning of her cult dates to the early dynastic period at least. Her name was part of the names of some high-born Second Dynasty individuals buried at Helwan and was mentioned on a stela of Wepemnofret and in the Pyramid Texts. Early frog statuettes are often thought to be depictions of her.[5]

Later, as a fertility goddess, associated explicitly with the last stages of the flooding of the Nile, and so with the germination of corn, she was associated with the final stages of childbirth. This association, which appears to have arisen during the Middle Kingdom, gained her the title She who hastens the birth (cf. the role of Heqet in the story of The Birth of the Royal Children from the Westcar Papyrus[6]). Some say that—even though no ancient Egyptian term for “midwife” is known for certain—midwives often called themselves the Servants of Heqet, and that her priestesses were trained in midwifery.[7]Women often wore amulets of her during childbirth, which depicted Heqet as a frog, sitting in a lotus.

Heqet was considered the wife of Khnum, who formed the bodies of new children on his potter’s wheel.[8]

In the Osiris myth, it was Heqet who breathed life into the new body of Horus at birth, as she was a goddess of the last moments of birth. As the birth of Horus became more intimately associated with the resurrection of Osiris, so Heqet’s role became one more closely associated with resurrection. Eventually, this association led to her amulets gaining the phrase I am the resurrection in the Christian era along with cross and lamb symbolism.[9]

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To Be Or Not To Be?

Suicidal thoughts or even contemplating the mere philosophy concerning suicidal phenomena is a socially tabooed topic indeed. But it is still important for us to understand the mind of those who do wish to go through with this sort of terminal action. As someone who would choose to show a little empathy towards a potential terminator, we must understand that such a mind is obviously in a state of enduring deep intense and recurring pain of which we as an outsider know little to nothing about. Usually, this is the reason that such people consider terminating their currently dealt program. Not only do those around them enjoying “healthy lives” fail to relate but the suicidal individual simply wants to escape their constant pain, heartache, sorrow, suffering etc. like anyone in their right mind eventually wants to avoid the sound of a broken record. To deny someone this form of escape would seem totally insane and little better a quality of character than those who deliberately initiate suffering and inflict pain onto others as a sometimes covert but also overt form of torture — usually enjoyed by (you guessed it…) an abuser. Is it no surprise then that in our first world cultures it is considered “illegal” for an individual to attempt his or her own suicide? No. No, that isn’t much of a surprise at all for such rigid “first world” policy.

Although we made an agreement with the gods to come here to this world, we never (knowingly) made a contract to stay, and nor can we stay here forever anyways so, my conclusion:

“Go ahead. Make my day.”

~ Dirty Harry

Alan Watts and other philosophers have also proposed that this is the only serious topic or question that we can ask ourselves:

“To be or not to be?”

~ Shakespeare

So then, offering those who contemplate their own termination an unusual response that they might not expect can sometimes throw them off and indirectly sway them to view their situation in a different light. If we respond with something unexpected like, “Okay, great! So have you thought about how you are going to do it yet? Have you made the necessary plans, and what should I do to help? Have you thought about taking out someone else while you are at it like, say, a rapist or a child molester or some evil CEO of some corporate institution profiting at the expense of those less fortunate? Let’s get this done right!”

These kinds of active engaging and realistic questions or concepts will likely surprise a suicidal individual. After all, they are expecting everyone to say, “No! Don’t do it!” Can we see the problem behind this sort of response directed at an already restricted or repressed or depressed victim? It’s limiting. Responding to a victim who shares with us their only option to alleviate their torturous experience — with a totalitarian command noless — will likely serve to diminish an already diminished individual instead of helping that individual in any real lasting way. If anything, such an argumentative reply is damaging and will likely cause the victim to feel even more imprisoned in their already caged-in circumstances. They just want someone to relate to, someone to exchange with about thoughts that are important to them, no matter how disturbing they might seem to be at a glance. Sometimes it is not a concrete solution that we seek in others, but simply that those others would willingly engage with us in seeking. They want to feel as though they matter to others. They want to matter. And they do matter, but the only problem is that we aren’t sending them that message or maybe they just can’t see it, no thanks to the (usually clueless and insensitive) manner of our interaction with them. If for no other reason, a “surprise” response will help to alter the depressive person’s state of mind into considering alternative ideas, even if for only a moment. Frightful territory, short-lived, and unusual, maybe — but a new and alternative train of thought nonetheless. This is what is required in rebuilding neural pathways in the mind: to continually think of new thoughts and not the same old depressive ones.

I say sky or mountain / cliff diving (without a chute), or a swim out to sea would do the job fairly well, if I had to resort to a way out. Something where it is just us and the gods, no one else. Or we could hire a good friend or some excellent marksman to shoot us in the back of the head from across a field at a moment when we least expect it; while we are genuinely happy or laughing or smiling. Morbid, right? But what we do not want to do is accidentally fail at our attempts, such as jumping off of a 13 story building and surviving as a paraplegic like my friend did once. Fortunately enough, she had a wild and dark sense of humour which allowed her to process things somewhat after that.

So after learning about my friend’s story I decided to write an adult children’s book, Suicidal Bunny.

It’s about a rabbit who tries to commit suicide over and over again but never succeeds. On each page there is a cartoon showing how the rabbit accumulates each new injury as each new attempted suicide remains unsuccessful. Finally reaching the moral of the story:

Until one beautiful sunny spring day, Suicidal Bunny thought really hard for a really long time and said: “Well, because I seem to be incapable of killing myself successfully, I have decided to devote the rest of my life in order to help other little bunnies who are also sad and who also want to die; so that they can live a happy life rather than choose to put themselves through the same kinds of mistakes that I have chosen for myself and the suffering that came with it — all for nothing!” …and just like that a meteorite fell from the sky and instantly killed Suicidal Bunny.’


Inspired by Chloe Cole.

PS — If you think or feel that the subject matter in this blog is disturbing, that might likely be because of the fact that the subject matter examined above IS disturbing.

Clhoe Cole

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Witchcraft: Music Language Script & Mathematics

Witchcraft is the ability to cast spells or magic in order to alter reality in some measurable (and usually immeasurable) way:

Magic (n.) Look up magic at Dictionary.comlate 14c., “art of influencing events and producing marvels using hidden natural forces,” from Old French magique“magic, magical,” from Late Latin magice “sorcery, magic,” from Greek magike (presumably with tekhne “art”), fem. of magikos “magical,” from magos “one of the members of the learned and priestly class,” from Old Persian magush, which is possibly from PIE root *magh- “to be able, have power.” 

Transferred sense of “legerdemain, optical illusion, etc.” is from 1811. Displaced Old English wiccecræft (see witch); also drycræft, from dry “magician,” from Irish drui “priest, magician” (see druid).”

Screen Shot 2017-08-08 at 3.48.15 PMThis is why when western colonials revealed the powers of writing to Abenaki and other Eastern tribes, the Abenaki presumed that it must have been magic or witchcraft… because it is witchcraft. Any human attempt to reproduce and ultimately capture form is at its core a form of magic power. Music, language, script, and mathematics are all powerful forms of magic that we as human beings harness in a playful attempt to seize real phenomena that is at once a part of as well as separate from us. Some tribes view the reproduction of their own face as a form of trapping their soul, so these tribes will avoid having pictures taken of them and other forms of visual duplications/reproductions etc.. Most eastern tribes would refuse anyone who would want to take photographs of them lest their souls be stolen and they disrupt the spirit worlds.

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Religion: Medicine For Some, Poison For Others

Who goes around poisoning people anyways?

Religion nearly killed me.

The effects that religion had on me as a younger man nearly made me take my own life, out of a profound sense of feeling rejected, shun, bad, worthless, etc. by those very people whom I trusted to help guide me towards my higher purpose. The effect of being sent the message that we are totally worthless to those whom we invest all of our time and energy into or through or with, after we have placed all of our faith and hopes and strengths and talents in the… air, as we are told to do by those supposed ‘spiritual leaders’ (more like: spiritual abusers) can strip a person’s true spiritual identity down into shreds. This is truly destructive in an extremely psychologically sick and twisted and usually unseen way. People who have not been infected by this religious poison simply cannot relate, so do yourselves a favour and don’t expect anyone to understand besides others who have forged a similar path as your own, if this has been your experience also. I gave all of who I was away, sacrificing everything about me in order to trade my being, my life, my own spiritual freedom, for a promise to everlasting life in some really boring living conditions (no sex in heaven!? Wtf!?). Blindly placing our trust in such an empty promise — which no man or woman has the right to make in the place of the gods — can totally destroy our identity, our goals, aspirations, motivation, drive, reality, priorities, self-esteem etc.. It is how free spirits are broken down, shattered, deconstructed and retransformed into nothing, powerless; good for the grave. Just consider the destructive effects that religion had on native pagan cultures everywhere, in the age of colonization.

Social ostracism inflicted onto us by those we reach out to for help can utterly ruin our normal ability to function in society, and because we will leave our former life, most of our friends, our passions, hobbies, hopes and dreams, purpose, and also then eventually leave the “new family” who are supposedly “saved” and will always “love” us and help us — to figuratively sell all we are and own for one single thing called “heaven” (when in reality this is just sect/cult acceptance — because we are programmed to serve and please those who dictate “the word of god” (such bullshit, no man or woman knows the mind of god, yet alone all infinite numbers of all of the gods))… such people will find themselves very alone without anyone, rendered socially and psychologically incapacitated, or estranged at best.

The fact is that we are social creatures much like wolves are. It has been documented throughout history that the encouragement of our peers can make all the difference in life and death or other trying situations. Consider: a young Japanese child performing acrobats in front of his school might not be capable of performing his or her task, and after a few failed attempts this then causes this child to cry in front of everyone, but once that child’s peers circle around that child and bow down to this individual in loud energetic repetitive chant in order to encourage that child, as is Japanese customs…  that individual is then capable of succeeding at the task, against all odds.

Religious people know and understand just how truly powerful a role that social psychology plays in a person’s life, especially a child’s, and how peer-encouragement or the lack thereof can either make or break anyone. The best part? That is exactly how and why religious manipulation was DESIGNED — and not by the gods, but by man. Concerning dogma such as, “the meek shall inherit the earth”; “the weakest one will win” / “the first shall be last”… well, this is intensely problematic because those who (naturally) WANT to win — but then DENY that nature about themselves will believe this type of logical fallacy to be rooted in some kind of tangible reality, here — on Earth. When, in actual REAL reality, those ideas exist solely in the mind. As usual… saying one thing while doing something else entirely, usually polar opposite in professed quality of heart. Weak people don’t win, folks. They just get good at losing; which, admittedly, is an art and a strength in and of itself… but I digress this to the realm of paradox. As Alan Watts reveals to us, “they believe that they should believe”. We could also say that they choose to believe. How ironic is that; if we choose to believe in something or someone, what power can belief ever truly have over our own core freedom of choice — the source?


We cannot “debunk” a belief. But we can demonstrate that it is a choice. Naturally every choice has it’s consequences, of which we are solely responsible for. So if anyone is thinking of joining a religious group or is currently in one, even “for the sake of love” well… I’ll pray for ya (religious people’s way of saying: “Go hang yourself”)! Sure, pray for the hungry and pray for the poor… but the poor and the hungry would be much better off if you just made them a goddamn sandwich. Maybe even slip them a few bills, and check up on them every once in a while, you know… out of LOVE (the real kind)???

Religious people must learn that just because they think that their dogma or religion or so-called ‘spirituality’ will save them and makes their lives more virtuous — IT DOES NOT NECESSARILY MEAN THAT THIS WILL NOT BE ANYTHING LESS THAN TOTAL FUCKING KRIPTONITE TO OTHER FREE SPIRITS.

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Religion is a serious mental poison for some of us out there which can and will debilitate even the strongest of men. It is my firm experience that there is much more pure unconscious evil in religious circles than there is outside of those groups.

Religious people know this powerful social weapon works; that’s why they shun people. “Enable them like showering a heroin addict with narcotics, then if they step out of line — pull the rug right under their feet cold turkey using the purest form of hate: IGNORANCE” (heroin addicts will — DIE — if they go cold turkey). Don’t let yourself or your friends or family poison themselves with this most wicked of evils that exists in this world: those people who claim to know and understand the mind of god, but instead covertly, whether unconsciously or deliberately so, are more concerned with gutting your soul right out of your insides and turning you into a dull lifeless guilt-ridden shameful small and unworthy mind-salve deserving of nothing more than mental, emotional, and spiritual abuse — by far the most vile form of abuse that there is, has been or will ever be on Earth. To have the effect of (deliberately) making a man or woman feel or think that — GOD — does not approve of them as a creature, either by way of shunning them or any other form of abuse, just because they voice their own mind… well, what a deeply profound horror this truly is.

By the way, the gods of the religious must be pretty goddamn small to necessitate the construction of buildings to worship and house them in… what kind of god lives inside the buildings of humans? Probably a human man-made god. Also, last I checked, the gods (that I know about) are not confined to the words on a page of some dusty old book.

Stay curious and limitless in wonder, friends. That’s how life is designed; we are not meant to have all the answers or solve all the problems. Real gods — do not have all the answers either, but I’m not certain of this because I don’t claim to know what the gods think or feel at any given moment of every single day! Believing that one god or one dogma will answer all of life’s endless questions and fill the cup of wonder to the brim, while you trade away your life for it… is literally worshiping LIES.

Respect yourself and your neighbours more than that.

As nice as some monotheists might claim to be or act, unfortunately, the reality is that any monotheism necessitates the abolition of polytheism. They might act nice and peaceful and loving… as far as your eyes can see, but deep down they perceive us polytheistic folk as demons worthy only of being “saved” or eternal hellfire.

I have spent half of my life’s beliefs under the spiritual tyranny of their “God” dogma. The way I see it, it’s their turn to acknowledge — OUR — gods.

It is always the mistake of the target to project their values onto the abuser; the spirituality of the old ones was inclusive and open-minded, but as any native culture, they chose to see the new monotheistic religion as equally inclusive, which it is not. How else do you think that they got a foothold on men and women as tough as Vikings? It was a mind game. A cunning psychological trick (more sly than Loki himself). Because the Viking spiritual mind is vast, infinite, and one with the earth and the heavens, the new religion sowed it’s monoculture seed therein, effectively obliterating any other spiritual crop… because — WE — (our forefathers and mothers) let them do it; for what open minded gardener of the spiritual landscape would not welcome a new crop into their fertile soils and onto their kitchen table?

And that is exactly how any abuser gets a foothold onto their target: by taking advantage of the values and virtues and projections of that target in order to cut that target off from their roots, their gods, their ancestors, and their folk.

When was the last time people looked up at the stars and counted their number? There is not only one star in the multiverse but an infinite number of them. The same is true with the gods.

Sorry, but I don’t trust monotheists!

Not even a single one.


Old World Norwegians collide with New World Monotheists:

Photo: Operation Werewolf


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Particles: Balls Of Coalesced Waves

The particle/wave paradigm has confounded scientists for decades. But have these scientists covered all the bases, even: the impossible? That particles are in reality condensed balls of coalesced electromagnetic waves which consist of smaller condensed balls of coalesced electromagnetic waves ad infinitum. Cracking the code concerning the proportional relationship existing between these two interdependent states of ‘matter’ (energy: plasma/light/sound etc.) would be to discover the key unlocking the hidden laws of the multiverse and by extension how all things operate and are intertwined with one another.

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