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While some things are known, most things are not known. When I wake up in the morning, I look around, and I see a bunch of trees. On each one of those trees are thousands if not hundreds of thousands if not perhaps millions of leaves or needles. Then I look around at night and see an endless number of stars in our sky. Then I contemplate the grains of sand on all the beaches of every possible planet out there in the universe and the universe of universes; the multi-verse. I think of all the different languages in the world and all the different people and their ideas, all the different types of animals, bird species, marine life and perhaps even (likely) intelligent alien life out there in the cosmos. I also see how death is necessary for life; it very well could be that life can only be possible if there is also death attached to that life, in an endless cycle of cradle to grave. Perhaps one day we will have the ability to escape death, but for now it certainly appears to be the other way around…

So when I close my eyes I contemplate the vast number of these things, and although there is no way to know for sure, after having explored monotheism for many years of my life, the sheer endless number of things out there persuades me to consider that God is more like us than we are led to believe; than most people might think in our short little lifetimes. It seems that if indeed we were created “in his image”, that image is infinite in number just as every other creature or thing appears to be. So in my mind I understand that God is in fact a body of many gods, endless in number and strengths and talents, very likely mortal just as we are, just as our planet is, just as our sun is, and the universe or the multi-verses of multi-verses themselves.

There will always be a bigger fish or a number of smaller fish ready to bring that bigger fish down. Alas, the only constant is change itself. As above, so below. So it is with human beings. Why wouldn’t it be the same with the gods?

I wouldn’t even be surprised if these gods look to us for answers to the questions which they themselves cannot ever seem to find.

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Have a good one folks!


Highway Islands & Homeland Security

Highway Islands are any significant space between two vehicles on a highway where slow/push factors due to other vehicles are absent. I have noticed that — brace yourselves — every two KM (at least) there is some usually locally recruited homeland security agent monitoring the highway with ‘eyes on the situation’, as it were, especially at key points connected by linear visibility. In every town there are at least one pair of agents for every citizen! Too incredible to believe? Maybe. But maybe not, too. They circle around their town, and other towns respectively (they bring their cars to a local garage at the end of the day to trade cars, so we cannot ever recognize them), in an organized fashion to monitor and control highway circulation. Its organized gang-stalking, basically. The way to avoid being followed by highway agents, if you have a few minutes to spare, is to simply pull over and wait for a ‘highway traffic island’. Try it! Its so much fun. Sounds crazy, right?

Part of this reason is for ‘safety’ (with a focus on border towns, and by extension, their neighbouring towns), another reason they might claim is too “keep the traffic moving and fluid”, when in reality the ability to stop the flow of drivers is in a sense a physically manipulative or even violent and real unavoidable byproduct of highway traffic engineering. There are likely many more applications for doing this; one application might be to deliberately stress people out (stress is the #1 cause of death, medically speaking; stress will produce (largely unconscious) insatiable consumers who have a constant need to fill their void; after all, slaves are hungry people; and any related illness always means good business for big pharmacy companies), another reason is to burn oil (gotta suck the planet dry of oil before the other countries do).

Still another reason for highway engineering is to organize ‘noise raids’ at key times of the day (but, nah… that’s ‘just rush-hour traffic’, right?) — these deliberately-tuned obnoxiously loud engines and their mufflers are set loose like the cavalry to cooperate with the LRAD (Long Range Acoustic Device) mounted under planes to make loud low-decibel sounds in order to manipulate the physical world to some measurable degree. Again, there are many applications for why they are doing this — environmental alterations, affect/stress water, plants, animals, people; very low and specific dissonant frequencies disrupts REM (songbirds will flee on account of sonic competition) and has an electromagnetic interference with energetic toroid fields of pretty much every single thing, including but not limited to our hearts right down to atoms and their electrons (remember: atoms consist mostly of empty space, at about 90%).

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These audible and sometimes not so audible soundwaves cause physical forces (via shockwaves which interact physically onto/with the environment (particles/waves), create wind, move clouds, catalyze precipitation (rain/snow); along with HARRP (High Frequency Active Auroral Research Program), mechanical sound pressure waves can be used for a wide array of applications. But sound can also heal. Such are the effects of certain kinds of music, harmonies/frequencies or tunings; from gold singing bowls high up in the Tibetan mountains, right down to the broken reed stems in a swamp below with cool mountain air blowing over their tops to create a natural chorus of flutes. This, as well as other natural phenomena such as the song of songbirds, it is proposed by the Hopi and other tribes around the world, is the origin of music.

Sound is a physical force which creates shockwaves into the physical world where that physical world, animate or inanimate, absorbs those shockwaves, capable of realigning subatomic particles within matter. This is why the LRAD machine that is used against protesters is in fact — PHYSICAL VIOLENCE — being directed at peaceful citizens by their government. The same applies with highway engineering — this is a physical force deliberately used to physically affect, slow down or speedup traveling free men and women on Earth.

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Have a good one folks!


Reds Are To Blues As Apaths Are To Empaths

Can we expect a spoiled rotten five year old child to avoid constantly craving more tooth-rotting candy? Nope. That’s just what spoiled rotten children want/do. Likewise, an abuser will involuntarily crave more of their abuse onto others (especially onto empaths), because they consider it to be ‘fun’, its a source of energy/power, and they fear nothing more than that the target of the abuser stands up for him/herself and begins to abuse THEM — not that empaths would likely choose to go that extra step, but that’s what the abusers fear. Because: they project onto empaths what the abuser’s own nature is. Therein lies the disorder. Fun, right?

Allegorically speaking, we might ask: what would be sane about the colour red fearing that the colour blue suddenly becomes red? Nothing. Nothing is sane about that. Not only does blue want nothing to do with red (after all, light is supposedly inanimate), but it just so happens that these two dissonant colours exist on opposite ends of the light spectrum.

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Let’s try switching things around a bit in order to comprehend the abusive behaviour of projecting onto others: ‘It would be the same as if empaths would suddenly fear that apaths (abusers) would turn around one day and love us! God forbid. Why, that would be TERRIFYING.’ Obviously, not the most rational or even sane train of thought ever. Alas, such are the minds of abusers, and this is why we categorize them as having mental disorders… because they are fucking mental!

I have throughout my life usually tended to root for the underdog in just about any given situation, instead of merge with the fat dogs (who always seem to have some extra materialistic advantage (ephemeral energy) to offer; hey, who doesn’t appreciate a few perks in life, right?); besides, underdogs are usually so much more interesting, have way more to say, and tend to be the more easier-going peaceful crowd, whereas fat dogs tend to be rather boring and not very thoughtful or contemplative. Giant babies, basically.

So, whenever someone begins a sentence directed at us with the likes of abusive patronizing totalitarian words such as: “You need to…”, it can be a good habit to tune out right then and there, and even start walking away from that physical geographic location where said abusers are found wanting to occupy. Remember: abusers need targets, not the other way around. Otherwise if we tune in and hang around we risk that the abuser’s projections become imprinted onto us so that their fears and desires will ever so slightly become our own. In this way an empath can become poisoned to the point of vengeance. This is extremely sad and totally deranged because empaths do not value revenge; it is not a fruit of the spirit but a desire of the flesh for short-term gains which can only breed more revenge, shovel full by shovel full digging out the pit deeper and deeper… and we all know that ‘who so ever diggeth a pit shall fall in it’. So walk away as soon as humanly possible, lest you be laid to rest before the gods come calling your name.

We know that a person is a narcissistic abuser when they ***threaten*** — HELLO!!!??? — to sew you for speaking. The #1 reason that narcissists sue people is solely for money and a feeling of control (to get “one up” on you), nothing else matters to them. They might claim “defamation of character” or “slander” (their poor gigantic egos are hurt) and beg for others to pity them because they’ve “got it so hard” but in reality all they want to do is HURT you, not by using mere words, either audibly or in text, but  with the heartless cowardice of legal system sand third parties (that’s just what cowards do;  hey, why be responsible for our own actions in life when we can have little baby jesus be responsible FOR us in court instead?! That’s how they ‘get off’. Why else do you think the sex is so goddamn dry?

They care about nothing but themselves and their appearances. They have no consideration for higher virtues or fruits of the spirit such as forgiveness, understanding, empathy, joy. They want war — always. Not dialogue. Their hearts are poisoned by hate, jealousy, fear, rage and envy. They want what YOU have. They want and expect everything from everyone at all times because they know deep down inside that they have nothing and that they are essentially worthless when it really comes down to it (cowards are useless in a REAL war). That’s why we call it a disorder: because its a SICKNESS OF THE MIND BODY & SPIRIT. Narcissists will even often claim that they know better than you do concerning your own physiology, ability to judge or intuit or sense your environment, and just about anything else. They are truly deranged.

But the good news is that we can, not only learn all about them and their colossal weaknesses, usually brought about and into the open by their own erroneous doing, but we can also learn from them and beat them at their own game. Remember: these are children who are trapped in the bodies of adults. They aren’t all that intelligent in spite of what they think about themselves. Once you know how their tune goes, you can play it backwards and blindfolded like real live musicians can. Of course, this will only enrage the narcissist — and that’s a good thing. You want them to associate their highly uncomfortable rage with you; its like sending them the message that you know that they know that you know all about their computer software programs and passwords, where you can have unlimited access to all their juicy dirty little secrets and could even show them all off to everyone in your village… if you really wanted to! Hell, its like having money in the bank!

These narcissists are highly competitive, and they must be right at all costs. It  sounds crazy (because it is), but it is as though they truly believe that they star in “reality” TV shows the likes of Survivor where social games and manipulations and sole concern for rising up on top of the rest of your tribe outweighs all other concerns, such as mutualism  — its not even reality, folks! Camera crews follow those people around all day long (a true narcissist’s wet dream). They aren’t lost on some remote island in the middle of nowhere with nothing to eat or no one to provide food or shelter or meds for them. They know exactly where they are and there are plenty of other people around to help them when they truly need it… off camera. Its all an act, just like the narcissist’s entire life is. What’s more is that the system has been so fine-tuned, from culture creation engineering/monitoring radio shows to TV to Hollywood movie audiences etc. that if you are, say, a huge Duck Dynasty fan, for example, chances are that your IQ is not exactly the highest score in the entire world, and that the military intelligence complex has all the stats on you, your parents, their parents, how many times you have watched garbage TV shows or subscribed to them, who your friends are, what they do for a living and how many kids they have, what kinds of foods and beverages you ingest, etc. so that at some point as an adult: the MIC has a fairly good psychological profile on you that just might paint a pretty narcissistic picture in their eye. What’s in YOUR social media news feed… sports cars, plastic spoons, Farmville, skin-deep narcissistic pictures of yourself; garbage? We are what we eat, folks! Drink up that fluoride.

Now, unfortunately, when it comes to religious matters, most xians and other religious folk out there are inclined to being narcissists; after all, they have a super important image to uphold, for the sake of others salvation, right?  Christ, get over yourselves. They prefer war over peace, especially when offered the option. Sounds crazy, right? Well, that’s because it is crazy. The reason for why this is the case is because xians & co. will never be wrong when it comes to matters of their faith (not yours, but they will attempt to project that faith, or lies, as I call them, on to you as much as possible; again, in order to control you); they are intransigent. Being ‘wrong’ would imply that their messiah is not their saviour — and never being wrong is one of the narcissist’s BIGGEST tells. HELLO!!!??? The narcissist just can’t go there; they cannot handle the cognitive dissonance. They must be righ, or go way out of their way with big flashing lights on in order to prove that YOU are wrong — ALWAYS. Or else! Its fear of death from cradle to grave… and facing this sort of thing requires a measure of growing up which unfortunately also demands a degree of effort that most prefer to avoid. Hey, why not take the path of least resistance right? After all, life is hard enough as it is. Ambiguity only makes things harder or… realistic, rather.

However, as a free spirit, you can always try expanding your spiritual-mental vocabulary by learning more about Polytheism or the likes of Pagan Heathenry (rather than spending your entire life obsessing over one single book; OCD ring a bell). There is much more depth and substance to these more openminded ancient spiritualities (the only real reason for why xianity ever crept up in the hearts and minds of Gauls, Visigoths, Celts etc., because these Pagan tribes were inclusive of other realities — not exclusive), which serves to keep one’s mind OPEN. Truly, I would rather have a mind opened by wonder than one closed by belief!

Strangely enough and yet not so surprisingly, religious folk often times are totally incapable of walking in the faith that they profess can save others from death or eternal hellfire. It is as though their faith — their dogma (lies) — blinds them from seeing themselves for what they truly are: preachers, judges, accusers, punishers, sinners, just like everyone else is. The only difference with us Polytheistic Heathens? We can own up to it. Religious folk can’t… otherwise in their minds their religion would be tarnished and therefore not the one true religion (how sad).

“Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do.”

But I like my saying better:

“The purest form of evil is the evil which is totally unaware of itself.”

~ Lemurian 

In comparison, empaths actually do value and choose love, empathy and compassion as their ‘faith’.  Religious institutionalizations are not the measure of ethics, folks. But once an empath is imprinted onto by an apath,  religious or not, the apath’s job is done.  If it were not such a bloody dependent zombic vampire, from that moment on the apath might just as well leave the empath alone with their new self-abusive machinations now unconsciously self-propelled, and in ever-increasing momentum. As long as the empath continues to manifest the foreign values of the apath as their own, the empath will continue to cause his/her own abuse. As far as the apath is concerned, they have just created a masterpiece worth boasting about. This  internalized empathic self-harm then weakens that empath more and more, until they either somehow miraculously snap out of the newly adopted illness brought about by the imprinting of the abuser, or they will simply roll over and die in one final act; a cry for help… when its too late.

It all boils down to knowing what we truly value in life, folks. Know your true colours. Know that if you are a blue, chances are that you will radiate with other blues, and if you try to be a red — when you are not a red, never have been a red, and can never truly be a red — you will likely morph into some kind of muddy dull drab purple which both blues and reds will see you as  constantly alienated from your true self, all while the reds thrive off of abusing you further and your self-harm. Instead, rather than striving after something that you are not, let the reds be reds and consume one another. After all, the colour red mostly exists in ephemeral states anyways (berries, flowers, red hair, blood etc.) where it’s only subjective permanence lies in the likes of molten laval; only occasionally and at limited locations on Earth will it ever show it’s true countenance.

But as a blue, you belong in the vast endless expanse of our powerful deep navyblue oceans full of wild and free rich diverse marine life, the windows to the immortal souls of big beautiful deep blue eyes, and the sky.

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Have a good one folks!


Paved Earth

So why do we pave our roads, really? Its because we don’t want to walk there or get muddy feet if we do walk there. What are the implications of this? Think about it. “There are apparently 33 billion meters of road on Earth, so guessing 6 meters for the average road width gives 33*6 = ~200 billion square meters. There are 130,000 billion square meters of land, so 200/130,000 = 0.15%. Roads will be the bulk of it, so also counting airports, parking lots, etc, maybe 0.2% to 0.5%.

This all indicates that there are well over 100,000 square miles of area of the United States that is currently covered by Asphalt, in pavement in highways and roads, in pavement in parking lots, in the Asphalt roofing on countless flat-roofed buildings, etc. (The entire country has around 36 times that area.) Asphalt happens to be black and it has an extremely high absorbtivity and emissivity of solar energy, generally described as being around 0.95 or 95%. So, imagine if all that asphalt were somehow changed in color to extremely reflective white, for example. What effect would that have? The area we are talking about is only around 1/2000 of the surface area of the Earth, so it figures that the effect might be limited. We can convert the 100,000 square miles into square meters of area, and multiply it by the 893 watts of solar energy coming in per square meter, to get a value of around 2.3 * 1014 watts, as being the maximum incoming radiation energy from the Sun. But since the Earth rotates, and is spherical, this actual AVERAGE energy rate is around 6 * 1013 watts, which ACTUALLY hits the Asphalt surfaces of the United States.


Solar Roads:

The company was founded in 2006 by Scott and Julie Brusaw, with Scott as President and CEO. They envisioned replacing asphalt surfaces with structurally-engineered solar panels capable of withstanding vehicular traffic.[3] The proposed system would require the development of strong, transparent, and self-cleaning glass with the necessary traction and impact-resistance properties at competitive cost.[4]

In 2009, Solar Roadways received a $100,000 Small Business Innovation Research (SBIR) grant from the United States Department of Transportation (USDOT) for Phase I to determine the feasibility of the proposed project.[5] In 2011, Solar Roadways received $750,000 SBIR grant from the DOT for Phase II to develop and build a solar parking lot;[6] from this, they built a 12-by-36-foot (3.7 by 11.0 m) parking lot covered with hexagonal glass-covered solar panels sitting on top of a concrete base, heated to prevent snow and ice accumulation, with LEDs to illuminate road lines and display messages. According to the Brusaws, the panels can sustain a 250,000 lb (110,000 kg) load.[7]

In April 2014, the company started a crowdfunding drive at Indiegogo to raise money so they could get the product into production. The campaign raised 2.2 million dollars and became Indiegogo’s most popular campaign ever in terms of the number of backers it attracted.[8][9] The success was attributed in part to a tweet made by actor George Takei, due to his more than 8 million followers.[10][11] One of the Brusaws’ videos went viral, with over 20 million views as of November 2015.[11] In December 2015, the USDOT announced that it had awarded Solar Roadways a Phase IIB SBIR contract to further their research.[3] In 2016 they were given an additional $750,000.00.[12]

The first public installation was in Jeff Jones Town Square in Sandpoint, Idaho. It opened to the public on September 30, 2016. As a pilot install it is for walkways only.[13] This installation consists of 30 Solar Roadways SR3 panels covering an area of roughly 150 square feet. The cost of this installation was roughly $60,000 with the majority of the money coming from a grant from the Idaho Department of Commerce ($47,134), and a $10,000 grant from the Sandpoint Urban Renewal Agency.[14] A webcam was installed to broadcast a view of the installation.[15] None of the 30 panels generated any power after installation.[16] The City of Sandpoint’s Proposed 2016-2017 budget includes $500,000 for future Solar Roadways projects.[17]


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Netherlands Solar Bike Path


The world’s first solar highway has been opened in France, in the not-very-sunny village of Tourouvre au Perche in Normandy. The roadway is just one kilometre (0.6mi) long, but that still works out at 2,800 square metres of photovoltaic cells—enough, hopefully, to power the village’s street lights.

The road was built by Colas, a large Anglo-French construction company. Colas has apparently been working on its own solar road tech, called Wattway, for at least five years. Wattway has been tested in car parks, but this is the first time it has been used on an active road. There will now be a two-year test period, to see if Wattway can withstand the rigour of being pounded by thousands of cars and trucks per day, and whether it can actually provide a useful amount of electricity.

One of the Wattway panels up close.
Enlarge / One of the Wattway panels up close.

Usefulness aside, the main problem with constructing solar roads is their crippling cost. One of the main selling points of Wattway, according to Colas, is that each panel is just a few millimetres thick, and can thus be installed on top of an existing road, which in turn massively reduces construction costs. Having said that, the 1km road in Normandy cost €5 million (£4.3m) to build. And that’s for a single lane of a two-lane highway!

Expanding that out to €10m per kilometre for a two-lane solar road, you’re looking at a total cost measured in billions or even trillions of pounds to cover a sizeable portion of a country’s roads with solar panels. France has over a million kilometres of roads; the US has over 6 million. And that’s not counting the larger highways with more than two lanes…

Fortunately, Ségolène Royal, France’s ecology minister, has a much more reasonable goal in mind: she would like to see solar roadways replace one kilometre of every 1000 in France. Again, assuming she means two-lane solar roads at around €10 million per kilometre, the total cost would be €10 billion—not bad, assuming the panels (and the accompany electrical system) don’t need regular maintenance, and that they produce enough electricity to be worth the much higher initial outlay.

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Indeed, their questionable efficiency is one of the main reasons that more solar roads aren’t currently being built. Colas says that Wattway’s photovoltaic efficiency is 15 percent, which is pretty good (commercial panels that you might put on your roof are at about 20 percent). But that doesn’t take into account the fact that the solar panels are flat on the ground, rather than angled towards the sun’s trajectory, significantly reducing efficiency at higher latitudes. Heavy traffic could also block sunlight; as could snow, mud, and perhaps standing water after rain.

Back in 2014, a 70-metre solar bicycle path was built in the suburbs of Amsterdam in the Netherlands, at the utterly insane cost of €3 million. In its first year it produced about 3,000 kilowatt-hours (kWh) of electricity—enough to power an average home. At the current wholesale price in the UK (about £40 per megawatt-hour), that same €3 million would’ve bought you about 65,000,000 kilowatt-hours of electricity, enough to power about 21,000 homes for a year.

Obviously the maths are a bit better on the €5 million road in Normandy, but that’s still an awful lot of money to spend on powering the village’s (population ~3,300) street lights. The Wattway brochure suggests that 2,800 square metres of solar roadway ought to be able to power about 140 homes—about 420MWh per year. Though clearly, if they are just looking to power the village’s street lights, they’re not expecting anywhere near 420MWh in reality—perhaps due to the low amount of direct sunlight in Normandy.

Finally, because it’s Christmas and there’s no one in the office to stop me being mean, let’s talk about Solar Roadways, an Indiegogo project that raised a ridiculous sum of money ($2.2 million) back in 2014. That money, according to Solar Roadways, is being spent “on engineers to help us make a few needed tweaks in our product and streamline our process so that we could go from prototype to production.” Two years later, the first public installation of Solar Roadways is finally being constructed at a Route 66 welcome centre in Missouri.

According to the Missouri department of transport (MoDOT), the small 12ft-by-20ft patch of solar road will cost $100,000 to install. That works out at $416 per square foot—about $4,500 per square metre, or $11.6 billion per square mile. Scott Brusaw, founder of Solar Roadways, says there’s about 29,000 square miles of paved roads in the lower 48 US states, and he’d like to turn most of them into solar roads. He’ll need one hell of a Kickstarter to raise $330 trillion—16 times the US national debt—though.


Personally, I think Brusaw’s efforts would be better focused on just building a Dyson sphere and solving all of humanity’s energy issues in one fell swoop.

This post originated on Ars Technica UK

Listing image by Charly Triballeau/AFP/Getty Images

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NASA used a specially outfitted Lear Jet to collect thermal data on metropolitan Atlanta, Georgia. The city saw daytime air temperatures of only about 26.7 degrees Celsius on those days, but some of its surface temperatures soared to 47.8 degrees Celsius (118 degrees Fahrenheit). In this image, blue shows cool temperatures and red shows warm temperatures. Pockets of especially hot temperatures appear in white.
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Have a good one folks!


Personality Disorders & Healthy Targets 

Well, it turns out that I am a magnet for people with personality disorders.

People who do not set up boundaries with others by either refusing to engage in idol talk, for example, or talk about pointless things, about people, are demonstrating their lack of ability in setting up boundaries in social settings. Ideally this must be done by using direct communication in the form of something like, “I refuse to engage in this toxic talk about other people while I am eating lunch with you at this table; if you continue to talk in this toxic way about others I will have no choice but to leave your presence”. One thing we cannot do is tell others that they cannot behave in a certain way, but we can set up boundaries which if crossed then will leave us no other choice but to take ourselves out of the equation. In this way we demonstrate self-respect as well as help those enjoying our company to be more accountable for their actions and choice of conversation subject matter and behaviour in social settings.

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Boundaries are one of the only things that will keep toxic people at bay. While people such as myself are targets for those with personality disorders, sometimes the abuse of others who do have personality disorders, such as narcissists, will shape or influence otherwise healthy individuals into appearing as though those healthy people do have personality disorders, such as borderline personality disorders, when in reality they do not — but rather, are the targets of abusers and therefore these targets unconsciously and usually unwillingly adopt toxic behaviours, as is the toxicity of the source: the abuser. Unfortunately most cases go improperly diagnosed and as a result the target of the abuser is further abused by then blaming that target by diagnosing them with having a personality disorder — when they do not actually have one.

A lifetime of subtle and sometimes direct emotional abuse and other forms of abuse (mental, psychological, spiritual etc.) will overtime shape an individual into demonstrating problematic symptoms — however those symptoms are a result of the dysfunction of others and not necessarily a dysfunction or disease within that individual themselves. The key here is to understand that anyone who is incapable of considering for even one single moment that — they — might be the source of the problem or at least part of the problem (it takes two to tango, folks); anyone who is incapable of showing empathy, of showing empathy and understanding towards the suffering of others especially when that suffering is clearly blatantly and persistently voiced and expressed via verbal communication, letters, texts, emails, social media, complaints to municipalities, in the form of neighbourhood petitions, SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF THEIR LUNGS etc. — THIS — is the key to being able to recognize which people do have disorders and which people do not (when considering Axis I & II cluster B & C personality disorders, such as the narcissist: a disgusting human being that no natural man or woman in their right mind would ever want to continue any kind of association with, lest they want to lead a life as targets abused from the doorstep right to the mental hospital, from cradle to grave. No thanks.).

Narcissists are extremely toxic individuals who will abuse others emotionally and mentally and in anyway that they possibly can in order to exalt themselves at the expense of others’ suffering. This stems from a profound sense of fear or jealousy or anger or resentment (traits belonging to the black wolf Cherokee parable) etc. usually festering in the unhealthy and covert behaviours of children ages 4 to 7, which then poisons the growth of healthy caring individuals into adulthood. These disgusting abusers see themselves as superior and without fault and worthy of keeping others under their feet — literally (its disgusting). Targets are the ephemeral sources of supply for the self-adulation and false (ugly) pride of narcissists. This is why people who do have the capacity for empathy and self-contemplation, considering that they themselves might be the source to any given problem — these people are targets for abusers with personality disorders who prey on good-natured folk in order to make themselves feel superior. In reality those people who are targets are usually of a more virtuous quality of character as human beings, a character which others value and enjoy the company of naturally, without the pressures of social hierarchies: bosses, business partnerships, family relationships etc..

Therefore, personality disorders such as with the narcissist will favour targeting those individuals as mentioned above because the abusers with personality disorders — KNOW — that their targets are a great source of narcissistic supply (that’s why they target them). But, they also know that once those targeted individuals discover their greatest most colossal weakness which is their disorder, those targets will then be able to utterly pulverize and inoculate those abusers. Abusers fear this. They do not want to ‘get better’, it would require much too much effort, like starting ALL OVER AGAIN from step ZERO (0) (something which the likes of carpenters & musicians are used to doing, by the way — this being a demonstration of patience focus and dedication and commitment; that which those with personality disorders tend to be allergic to) or like starting over from the psycho-emotional level they were at when they were a six year old; yet alone could they even begin to admit that they must have some type of infectious disease, which must be treated in order to prevent further infection to other healthy individuals. That is why they try to get as much narcissistic sustenance as possible from their targets while they can because once the ‘bird flies out of the cage’… there’s no going back, and from that moment onwards the narcissist and those with similar personality disorders will begin to starve imploding from the insides with a cancerous disease, so to speak, knowing that their long-time favourite most delicious prey can now and forever will read them like a poorly written children’s book; like seeing right through a thin frail piece of glass.

So, it is important for us all to learn the basics crash course in personality disorders Psychology 101, Axis I & II clusters B & C personality disorders (Cluster B disorders are Anti-Social, Narcissistic, Borderline, Histrionic; Cluster C is Avoidant, Dependent and Obsessive Compulsive; so, even when you get an Axis II diagnosis, its a personality disorder but there are several clusters; one cannot fall in the Axis II diagnoses unless and until Axis I have been accounted for and don’t explain the symptoms), in order to equip ourselves with the knowledge which will shield us from the toxicity of persons with personality disorders such as the narcissist — which is to be avoided at all costs as much as possible.

I suggest that the high school education program include this basic psychology of personality disorders in their curriculums, lest you all prefer a society plagued with zombic vampires, yeah?

PS — We can always google whatever we want to know about + DSM V criteria and find the requirements to diagnose any mental health condition that is a formal diagnosis.


Boundaries by Cloud and Townsend.

Codependent No More by Melody Beattie.


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Brainwaves & Dialogic Form

I’m working on something I call Dialogic Form which shows how there is a tonal and rhythmic interdependency within human (and also very likely, animal) communication. Because I am a musician, I have noticed that there is a subtle and subconscious mimicry that takes place within dialogues, similar to how babies learn how to speak.

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It goes something like this:

In a healthy conversation, person X will utter a sound and then person Y will, without fail (so it seems) also utter the exact same sound when it’s their turn to speak in the rally of conversation. In this way the conversation is steered into its evolution with each person echoing off of what the other generates into the conversation. If person X says ‘He has a sexy brain!’, person Y will utter at least one of the previously heard sounds back into the dialogue; either a, ‘hhh’ ‘eee’ ‘hhh’ ‘aaa’ ‘as’ ‘zzz’ ‘aaa’ ‘sss’ ‘xi’ ‘iii’ ‘buh’ ‘bra’ ‘rain’ ‘ain’, or ‘nnn’ etc. – AND – not only mimic the tone or sound but also mimic the rhythm or beat of at least one of those sounds.

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This can be shown by (roughly) scoring any random conversation into musical notation onto an audible spectrum/music score. By then graphically depicting how the conversation is structured and develops in time we will begin to notice patterns in tonal inflections as well as in rhythmic fluctuations. Revealing the Dialogic Form (or the relationship of conversational elements/structure as generated by rhythmic/tonal pulses of brainwaves) in this way, we might also observe how animals communicate by using sounds and/or rhythmic gestures and queues (a slurp of the tongue, stomping of the paw/fin, or body language/movements which mimic certain rhythms and patterns; yawning, stretching etc.). They might even be communicating with us using this kind of mimicry, but we don’t even notice it because we simply aren’t paying close enough attention or we simply don’t care, for the most part.

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Finally, let us consider the reality that there is an electromagnetic frequency and rhythmic echo or ping generated by our brains, which can be detected with various modern technological devices. Obviously this might be slightly harder to set to musical score, but the day will come when our children will be mastering this craft in their elementary school biology classes. It would be important to for us to figure this stuff out because, among other things, if we can’t even understand how it is that we humans communicate with one another, not to mention how we might communicate with our own animals here on Earth — how are we supposed to communicate with intelligent alien lifeforms should we ever interact with life from another planet; unless of course they speak… English?

See more concerning audible communications between species in the animal kingdom, to which we are inextricably linked at:


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Like A Splinter In Your Mind

I imagine that right now you’re feeling a bit like Alice, tumbling down the rabbit hole? Hm?
Neo: You could say that.
Morpheus: I can see it in your eyes. You have the look of a man who accepts what he sees because he is expecting to wake up. Ironically, this is not far from the truth. Do you believe in fate, Neo?
Neo: No.
Morpheus: Why not?
Neo: Because I don’t like the idea that I’m not in control of my life.
Morpheus: I know exactly what you mean. Let me tell you why you’re here. You’re here because you know something. What you know you can’t explain. But you feel it. You’ve felt it your entire life. That there’s something wrong with the world. You don’t know what it is but it’s there, like a splinter in your mind driving you mad. It is this feeling that has brought you to me. Do you know what I’m talking about?
Neo: The Matrix?
Morpheus: Do you want to know what IT is? The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us, even now in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work, when you go to church, when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.
Neo: What truth?
Morpheus: That you are a slave, Neo. Like everyone else you were born into bondage, born into a prison that you cannot smell or taste or touch. A prison for your mind… Unfortunately, no one can be told what the Matrix is. You have to see it for yourself. This is your last chance. After this there is no turning back. You take the blue pill, the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill, you stay in Wonderland, and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes… Remember, all I’m offering is the truth, nothing more.

Have a good one folks!