Particles: Balls Of Coalesced Waves

The particle/wave paradigm has confounded scientists for decades. But have these scientists covered all the bases, even: the impossible? That particles are in reality condensed balls of coalesced electromagnetic waves which consist of smaller condensed balls of coalesced electromagnetic waves ad infinitum. Cracking the code concerning the proportional relationship existing between these two interdependent states of ‘matter’ (energy: plasma/light/sound etc.) would be to discover the key unlocking the hidden laws of the multiverse and by extension how all things operate and are intertwined with one another.

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No Measure Of Accusation Is Proof

No measure of accusation is proof. Mankind’s greatest shame is accusing and abusing the abused who dare speak up concerning their abuse, while protecting and consoling the abuser. Accusing people without proof, and then making it a fact — is unethical, immoral, and a strait path right into Nazi Germany concentration camps WWIII style, where malnourished ill-treated slaves are worked to DEATH.

This is our karma, and we will not escape it. We must learn to see through the false accusations of the abuser, and seek instead the virtues for which the abused is targeted… because: there is no other reason that an abuser would abuse their target than that such a target embody those higher virtues which do beg of man to shine out upon the world.

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Sound Bubbles

Sound is an expanding three-dimensional bubble of force resulting from the friction or contact between two different states of matter or energy including but not limited to their electromagnetic fields. In fact, sound behaves so closely to the way that magnetism does that sound is essentially a form of light (hence, acting as both a particle and a wave).

In reality only 1/4 of the spheric resonance field in the cymatic shown above contains the single unit or most reduced fraction of its structural pattern (the segment pattern, which must determine or be in relation to the frequency). At least two to three or more of these segment patterns then combine to form a Sound Bubble in 3D, like the segments of an orange combine to form a round spheric orange or ‘fruit bubble’; 1/4 or less, in some cases — a single ’empty’ or frameless bubble without any structure to it at all would mean that there is no sound, if there is such a thing… because sound is in reality just one dimension of matter detected by / existing as vibrations of energy; all matter emits or generates sound simply by virtue of it existing (in space). That high-pitched tinnitus ringing that we hear when we begin to sense soundwaves in and through the womb — that is the sound of matter, as perceived by the human ear. Analyzing these segment patterns cross-sectionally or linearly might just give us mathematical relationships with the ratio, direction, flow, pulse/force etc. of the sonic structure (shape, size, frequency) of the Sound Bubble. This could lead to further harnessing the motion of sound in order to amplify resonance to the point of being capable of using sound in order to preform mechanical works, maybe even rockworks the likes of the Great Pyramids at Giza, Egypt, or other ancient megaliths such as Stonehenge in Wiltshire, England, or in those in South America.

“In the beginning there was the Word (logos, logic, reason), and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.” 

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Stonehenge, England
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Pumapunku, Bolivia
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Inca Ollantaytambo, photo by Hidden Inca Tours.

Or we could say:

“Hear! There are words, and the words are gods.” 

…as though reason itself (logos) — of which there are many — the generation of thoughts or the very fact that thoughts exist in the first place — is in essence the manifestation of the gods through us, the animals, and possibly plants, or even molecules such as water. We might go so far as to propose that brainwaves emit a detectible pulse or ping which is not so unlike lightwaves or soundwaves that can also be measured or recorded electromagnetically.

Above: Water Cymatic, by Ben Browne.

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Underground Egyptian Star Map

If, as Robert Bauval has revealed, the three pyramids at Giza, Egypt, reflect the belt of Orion, what of the other stars in that area of the sky? Should there not also be some other structures at these proportionally equidistant locations away from the pyramids? How might other suspected sites of possible underground chambers, as proposed by Carmen Boulter, fit into this layout? Have we been meticulous enough in scanning these areas around Giza using our infrared ground-penetrating satellite imaging at these locations? Clearly the ancients built their monumental structures not only above ground but below ground as well so that it is not without reason to suggest that there could be entire complexes scattered about and buried under mountains of sand.

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Underground Serapeum Complex

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Abusers

you_doodle_2017-07-30t18_53_47zBecause, who else would want to be an abuser — but an abuser? Nobody. That’s who. Abusers want us to feel like they do. This is the key to dismantling the abuser whilst taking our power back. Ideally this is done in front of everyone in order to expose them for what they truly are so other potential targets might then have a chance at sparing themselves the cost of interacting with the abuser. But I can empathize with most people’s adult strength compelling them to avoid identifying with or having anything to do with a suspected super special abuser. Understanding that abusers want their targets to feel like they do allows a target to put the abuser back in their place, where they belong (which usually is not a very nice ‘place’; surprise surprise). Abusers despise this as they fear being exposed for the reality of their sick condition, and this would expose their vulnerable wounds as the infants that they are inside. An abuser cannot allow themselves to be vulnerable in front of others because this will invite abuse, as far as they are concerned, so they will instead take up the shield and sword of lies and lie to their targets over and over and over again and flatter them as long as their targets can remain a source of energetic supply for the abuser’s sadly depleting core. So before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self-esteem make sure that you are in fact not just surrounded by assholes, or blackholes, as I like to call them.

“Please — DO NOT ***FEEL*** BAD FOR ABUSERS. This is a huuuuuuuuuuuuuge choice that has huuuuuuuuuuuge consequences for your sanity and general quality of life — THAT THEY WILL BET THEIR VERY LAST PENNY ON, HOPE IN, DROOL OVER AND CONSCIOUSLY WANT YOU TO MAKE. Also, blaming the abuser or narcissist is NOT “narcissistic”. How are we supposed to identify an abuser who has in fact done us real ***intentional*** emotional, psychological, mental, etc. harm if we cannot assign patterns of repeated behaviour to their source: the initiator

If someone punches us in the face, but we cannot see them or locate/identify them, how are we supposed to accept their invitation to punch them back in THEIR face? 

We can’t. That’s how. And, this is exactly why we also refer to abusers as COWARDS. The playing field is not fair. The cards are marked and bent. A pawn was moved while we were not looking. They are cheats. They are cruel. They are shame. 

The narcissistic disorder “blames” others, but their “blames” are delusional invented lies that hold no true rational meaning or virtue or of real substance.”

~ Lemuria

If you do however choose to feel bad for an abuser, do not be surprised at what comes next — and without you even knowing about it:

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Toxic abusers are attracted to people who are made strong due to a hard life. But they want to tame that strength and resilience like a circus clown tames a big dumbass elephant [I don’t really think that elephants are dumb], not learn from it and make the effort that it would take to grow towards maturity or true powerful sentience. Their motivation is to find where and how and exactly when to add that one feather in order to break the camel’s back and own it like a dumbass robot bitch. It is instead the narc who is extremely weak, as it requires the blood of others like a mosquito, whereas the rest of us succulent targets are busy absorbing our environment. Our fuel is life. Their fuel is other people, and no number of dead bodies is large enough,

There are two kinds of people in this world. Some people will go out to a restaurant because they look forward to savouring some rare and tasty cuisine. Other people go out to restaurants because they are only concerned with exalting themselves at the expense of the service. An abuser will orchestrate a situation in order to hurt you and make you cry and then they will tell you not to cry or feel sad when you actually should be crying or feeling sad for having someone abuse you intentionally in that manipulative way. Beautiful, isn’t it? That’s right: abusers want you to die, and they couldn’t care less if you really did die. They have no empathy. They will never apologize. It would be precautionary to presume that they would presume that you would make the mistake to think that they are somehow ridden with guilt, therefore causing you to have your own natural feelings of empathy and guilt (that abusers do not have, unfortunately enough for them) and feeling like you are not a good person for standing up for yourself. While a target will apologize for just about everything, including things that they neither intended to do or things that they likely had nothing to do with, an abuser will not apologize because their value system is not the same as their target’s. A target of abuse usually is the kind of character that simply wants people to get along and to maintain a shared mutual peace together in order to mutually uplift one another, whereas an abuser does not find value in these things. Their fuel is not happy people. Their fuel is rife with contention mischief devious sly manipulative social undertones and plots. This is what an abuser finds stimulating, exhilarating, thrilling… “fun”. What they value more than apologizing for something that they intentionally caused or might not have intentionally caused, is to see other people suffer on account of them and their “mighty just interventions” which “serve” to correct the flagged problematic individual, especially one who displays signs of different or unusual cerebral activity, someone with natural talents, or someone who is a passionate individual. These characteristic traits are threatening to the abuser who neither understands nor harbours any of those qualities. Super neat folk, these abusers are. Making the world a better place one crushed heart or dead body at a time, like the good little delusional murderous cowards that they are. In fact, most abusers are rarely if ever at all (it would be a contradiction in values) big strong courageous men or women, but instead they are usually small or lacking in some (sometimes concealed) way. If you are having difficulty in identifying an abuser, you might try taking a good long had look at a fruit fly up close and personal… one of the nastiest little abusers I know of, next to noseeums.

Just look at that face:

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Should we play the same games that toxic abusers play? Beyond social media or books and journals etc., I hardly think that it is worth our time. I write in my blogs about them in order to learn about the specifics concerning their disorder, analyzed throughout a number of very specific situations. Once we accept that we are dealing with a spoiled rotten malicious infant trapped inside an adult’s body or mask who can’t ever stand being alone, serious introspective contemplation, or honest equal exchange… then everything starts to make sense. If we can presume or preemptively outsmart the child whilst imagining what devious little scheme they might be up to again tonight in order to get into the chocolate cake without getting caught, again. In reality, playing those games are not all that enjoyable or interesting except for maybe putting the narcissist back in their place — because we just know that they are reading our blogs — but otherwise we are much better off spending our time and energy creating real relationships with ladies and gents who are capable of exchanging real conversation and mutual validation, or at least: not be a galactic black hole! 

Facebook and other corporations can also act as one entity and essentially behave in the same way as a little abuser does. Instead of blocking a single post that they have a problem with because someone else has a problem with that post, they end up shutting your whole page history down… all your photos, videos, memes, ideas, comment history — GONE. On account of one side view of a shield maiden’s boob… that I — SHARED — from someone else’s uploaded post; super fair. It’s not right to give other people power over us in that way, just because they don’t like what we share. It’s as though we were to park in a no parking zone and instead of giving us a ticket for that one incident the police decide to erase our identities and everything we have ever said or done. That is a dangerous road straight to World War III. If you don’t like what I say or share then don’t come to my URL. As a response to that form of abuse we can then band together and sue these administrators for cyber entity murder or contributing to inciting it (the suppression of speech / cyber identity / text & other history etc.). When cowards who hide behind tinted anonymous windows have more power than authentic men and women willing to stand in the light and the brilliance of courage and original thought… well, humanity has a problem.

We have a right to know who our accusers are, and we ought to have the option to block them — BEFORE — they contribute to sabotaging our hard-earned Facebook pages, friends, historic comments and ideas and the groups that we join or are invited to! Those of us who have been silenced in this cowardly unjust way ought to band together and sue Facebook for magically erasing our Facebook history and our freedom of expression. It’s not right that they treat us with segregation in this way and even if they don’t like one or two posts — to have our whole account history erased is not equal weight in justice.

Things that we say which enables abuse:

You’ll get over it.

You’re just imagining things.

There’s no problem.

Don’t be like that.

They have a right to act that way.

They’re just doing their job.

Don’t be so upset over something so trivial.

What did you do?

I wouldn’t worry about it.

You’re being way to sensitive about this.

Just don’t think about it.

No one cares.

You always think that. 

It’s not like they did/do it intentionally.

You’re crazy.

That’s ridiculous.

You’re just being paranoid.

You’re blowing things way out of proportion.

Abuse doesn’t apply to men.

Everyone gets “brainwashed”.

Just move. 

You shouldn’t just trust your “instincts” like that. Why do you do that?

Why do you always say that?

How can you think those things about them?

Nothing ever changes.

You don’t really think that you can make a difference, do you?

You worthless piece of shit. 

Think of your reputation. 

God can’t bless you for that. 

Shut the fuck up, Donny.

One day the target is “the best”. Then the following day, the target has a “mental problem”. This type of treatment is a classic red flag signalling the presence of an abusive narcissistic sociopath. Super fun! As soon as the target stands up for himself or herself and assumes their own identity, the abuser will turn on a dime and suddenly… you now magically have a mental disorder where such accusation is initiated by the abuser. Initiation is paramount when analyzing the behavioural patterns of abusers; it’s not about who fights back in self-defence or about who outspokenly or inappropriately might speak out against the abuse or be provoked by that abuse, but it’s instead all about who initiates the violence — always. Understanding this basic mechanism can help to measure the degree of disorder in the abuser. The closer the two polar extremes of “you’re good”/”you’re not good” occur to one another in time, the crazier the abuser is. Look for these telltale signs. We can mark down on a calendar the time and date and intensity when such tells of abuse occur in order to qualify the pattern or degree of abuse inflicted — and covered up — over time.

Abusers need others to punish, like fruit flies need to fly right into your eyeball:

Narcissistic people on a power trip prefer fantasy to reality and they will indiscriminately join any group available to virtue signal from. Void of self-knowledge, toxic people will become highly triggered when you contradict the lies that they live on. The narcissistic social justice warrior is unreasonable, sanctimonious, biased, and self-aggrandizing. Their end goal is achieved through censorship and the continued propagation of codependent relationships. Gang stalking is a form of community mobbing and organized harassment. Organized targeting of a group is often about revenge, jealousy, sport, and/or to keep the target quiet. Gang Stalking is a systemic form of control, which seeks to suspend the activities of the targeted group. Once the targets are flagged, a notification is sent out to the community at large, and the targets are followed around 24/7 and harassed by ‘community’ volunteers. Portraying a group of targets as “the bad guys” is an effective gang stalking tactic. The abuse is masked under the guise of ‘social justice’ and ‘public safety.’ The gang stalkers will posture and grandstand by creating a series of manufactured events until everyone believes the target is a bad guy. A successful propaganda campaign will result in the gang stalkers being able to justify the target’s punishments.”

~ Sacha Slone

This is exactly accurate, and not only is it of utmost cowardice on the part of the “organized” little bullies (or, fruit flies), as they operate out of fear not honour; but they also create pain rather than alleviate it. They will have the nerve and sheer cruel stupidity enough to exclaim to the entire village that someone is “damaged” and then they will go right ahead and further damage that individual, physically, psychologically, emotionally — whatever it takes — because after all let us not forget that:

Hey, look on the bright side:

At least you’re not the one who is the old desensitized solipsistic ugly dried-up acidic scrawny evil narcissistic neighbourhood witch with an IQ of two, that dozens of neighbours living around you hate. And then these abusers wonder why they develop terminal diseases such as cancer. Pure geniuses. Really. Meh, no biggie right? They’ve got it coming to them. Thank the gods for karma.

I don’t have a terminal disease for nothing, folks!

If an abuser feels as though they are being tortured in someway — let’s say that they have a job that causes their feet to get sore — an abuser will want other people to have sore feet. They care NOTHING about other people. A simple apology or check in, “Hey, how are you doing?”, or “I’m sorry that things didn’t work out. How are you feeling otherwise these days?”, is totally impossible for them to consider as this would HELP the target of abuse and that is the very last thing that an abuser wants for their target. They consider themselves “successful” once being responsible for emotionally destroying someone; it is satisfying for them to the point of rendering them “joyful”. And yes, this includes religious abusers as well.  They truly are the most disgusting vile form of subhuman, and they excuse themselves for it. Cool, right?

They will normalize the abuse in front of others while perhaps also referring to it as a “minor inconvenience” when in reality they know very well that it is a serious painful condition that they endure, but for some reason of their own choosing they do not choose to help themselves or to help to improve that situation, beyond creating their own denials and fantastic delusional belief systems which temporarily allow them to cope with their all too realistic suffering, and so they will also extend that denial to others affected by their abuse. They might refer to the abuse using catch-all phrases like the above minor inconvenience, which they will then deliberately inflict onto others — hence treating that abuse as though “there is no problem” because it is perceived or expressed as a completely normal treatment of others. They might even add in a little “justifiable excuse” which obviously abuse can never be considered as. Abuse is abuse. Justice has nothing to do with it. There’s no one home, folks. There’s just no one home.

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For example, if their own suffering is that their feet hurt due to their job and as a result they will want to inflict that kind of suffering onto other people’s feet (because that’s just how demented they are), they might do something literally crazy like tie someone up in the backyard so that they cannot speak or escape from the abuse; in this case causing feet to get sore, where the abuser might, say, tie their target to a tree and then light a smouldering fire under that target’s feet! Fun, right? When someone comes around to check up on the suspected abuser and they ask the abuser if everything is okay, the abuser will reply, “Yes, everything is totally fine here. Have a great day”.

You guys see how insane that is… yeah?

 

Abusers will demand that we drown in a sea of noise, and then tell us that it is music. The more someone insists on questioning or investigating a suspected abuser, the more the abuser will pretend as though they are totally innocent. They will become increasingly extravagant in their portrayal of that innocence, falsely claiming things like: that they are concerned with nothing more in life than being a good citizen of quality care, or some other blatantly obvious tell like that. Remember: abusers tell on themselves. If they say to you, “I’m not cheating on anyone”, it means that they are cheating on someone. If they say to you, “I am paying two taxes (ooo… so impressive!!!)”, they are in reality only paying one, or something like that. Even if every logical common sense points to the fact that the abusers are responsible for abusing others through their actions, behaviours, appointed responsibilities or the lack thereof, the abuser will maintain at all costs that they are rendering the entire world nothing less than the best service ever. There is never any doubt in the abuser’s response to the inquiries or suspicions directed at them by other interested parties. They will never consider even for a moment that they could be responsible for abusing other people — because: they absolutely do not want to lose the “opportunity” to cause others to feel the harm that they themselves feel in their own miserable shitty little lives. They MUST be able to abuse others without anyone knowing it, especially not the targets of the abuse themselves. The reason that they want to inflict a similar pain to what they suffer(ed) onto others is in order to acquire (a dark and disgusting form of) power by draining an individual of their strengths, freedoms, virtues, or anything of value or of good characteristic attributable to those targets. They will do themselves great disservice by slowly filtering out men and women of quality from their lives, and by extension their communities, stunting the growth of those individuals’ otherwise natural social evolution. Because they just can’t stand not being the centre of attention even if that attention is unmerited. Rather than be a contributing force in building up an individual who displays a number of rare talents, that they themselves do not possess but recognize as exceptional or award winning, and so threatening to the abuser who is lacking, abusers would prefer to see such an individual rot in hell; their jealousy of other naturally talented individuals is simply just too overwhelming and so this as well as other Black Wolf spirir qualities compels them to sabotage anything good that they can get their dirty little coon hands on, much like when King Midas turns everything that he touches to gold, only… abusers turn everything that they touch into gold — they turn everything that they touch into abuse. It is a form of sacrifice that they engage in with this dysfunctional type of damaging behavior, much like when the Babylonians would sacrifice newborn babies to their god, Baal. If an abuser could they would extinguish the sun, and trust me: they are currently attempting to do just that.

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The younger, the purer, the more virtuous the target is, the purer the power that is produced by the abuser and for the abuser’s sick and demented sense of thrill.  It is the measure of their joy and what defines their emotional highs and lows; it is through the abuse that they feel most “alive”. This is why they are considered insane by those who endure the abuse inflicted onto them by the abuser. The abuser knows deep down that their treatment towards others is insane, but… mosquitoes can’t resist blood, it just wouldn’t be right. So the abuser does not recognize that this form of acquired power is dark and disturbing. They do not make this distinction. Well, they do, but they won’t be informing you about it. They simply view it as power to which they are entitled, simply because they can get away with it and that it’s just the way that they are designed so… heck, might just as well power up.

It does not matter how frequent or how many people confront the abuser concerning the suspected abuse. The abuser will continue to maintain their psychotic delusional fantasy by claiming that they are not abusing other people when they actually are abusing other people. They literally enjoy knowing that other people suffer on account of them. That’s the biggest part of the thrill. This is not a metaphor, folks. They actually believe that doing harm to others is “fun”.

Isn’t that great?

Abusive sociopaths will repeatedly apologize for their abuse but then go right on ahead and continue to abuse their targets without remorse consideration or empathy. For an abusive sociopath the words “sorry” or “apology” have absolutely zero meaning or real practical function in reality. Whereas when normal people say that they are “sorry”, they recognize that their actions do cause others significant harm and as a result their troubled sensitivity or conscience compels them to cease the abuse onto those affected by the abusive actions. But abusers just don’t give a shit; their words mean nothing. There is no room for improvement as they are already without fault in their own eyes, and that’s enough for them; other people who are affected by their abuse simply do not matter. It is more important for them to expose their targets to their abuse rather than place the target of abuse, the man or woman of authentic value, above the abuse (obviously; hey, abusers might be the most vile form of subhuman being running around with their heads cut off out there but they have their priorities strait, folks). And what do abusers do when their targets speak up against the abuse?

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They claim that “there is no problem” and will deliberately and ignorantly continue to abuse those targets even more by physically intimidating them, violating them, shunning them, gaslight them, manipulate them, hurt them, slander them, accuse and judge them, forcibly coerce them into contracts that are not in their best interest (duress), presume them guilty before being found innocent, stalk and follow them, lie and cheat, and most importantly: appear as civil and as kind and as reasonable as possible — but only while others are watching.

For example, we might have a case where someone who has been abused their whole lives by their peers goes out to rescue a three-month-old sheepdog who was left abandoned in a trashcan in the city. Because that target of abuse and that sheepdog will likely naturally develop a strong loyal wolf friendship, thanks to their mutual experience of abuse no less, an abuser would relish like a pig in the mire at the idea of taking away that new friendship from the target, and the sheepdog. They would do this by simply attacking or challenging the target at their address in some covert unsuspecting manner — even after having been informed by the target that such a person (the abuser) neither has any business going to that location and nor are they welcome there (hey, all the more reason to go on an invasion, yeah? Yeah… I’d say that someone has something to prove here) where the dog would be compelled to act suspiciously, picking up on emotion or the lack thereof in reaction to the ill-intentions initiated by the abuser. Obviously, the sheepdog would react in this very predictable way out of a sense of protection towards the sheepdog’s caretaker (aren’t abusers sheer geniuses to predict such an outcome, as the glorious oracles that they see themselves as role playing?). Later, after claiming a physical attack from the sheepdog, the abuser will then justify having that dog put down or taken away from the target of the abuse to some heartless “correctional” facility that is likely over populated with other problematically abandoned and extremely loud-sounding barking dogs (HELP! HELP! SOMEBODY LOVE ME! HELP!) within that sterile concrete caged-in facility, void of any familiar canine surroundings such as the dirt of quiet soundproof wolf dens or the like. The outcome in this particular example of attack is one which both ruins the friendship and trust between the formerly rescued sheepdog and the target of abuse who saved that sheepdog as well as ruining / significantly reducing the quality of life for the target and the sheepdog. Two for the price of one, folks. While maintaining a superiority of control of abuse on the target, the abuser then furthers the nervous abusive condition in the target already suffering from C-PTSD; a complex post traumatic stress disorder inflicted onto a target usually by narcissistic abusers. Pretty sweet!  Right?

Animals don’t like people like that.

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Abusers want to break you down and render you helpless and disfunctional; their aim is YOUR self-confidence (not some actual productive achievement). Lovely pair of eyes that they have there. They want you to perceive yourself as they perceive themselves: never good enough, worthless, shameful, incapable, dirty or vile, unacceptable, underserving, lacking etc.. Let’s say an abuser discovers that you have a nice big pair of breasts or a nice big juicy dick, but that the abuser does not in fact possess or have access to these things for themselves (so sad, I know). An abuser will ridicule and make fun of you or try to make you feel bad in some carefully orchestrated manipulative way (which more than likely took a lot of effort for them to come up with, which is why ignoring them is one of the most powerful tools in our arsenal to put abusers back in their place — but we frequently under estimate the power of such ignorance. This would be a mistake. Although we may not be affected by having others ignore us, abusers are most definitely mortally allergic to having someone ignore their amazing and perfect opinion. For a target, being offered the opportunity to ignore an abuser’s abusive treatment towards them is practically like winning the lottery, where the abuser did not get a chance to win — as far as the abuser is concerned); they will try to hurt you for possessing something that they themselves do not possess. They could even be jealous of your ability to love others freely or trust others or be open and honest with those around you in a natural flowing manner. It could literally be ANYTHING that you have that they do not have that they would covet; it could be a pastor who secretly resents others in the church for the mere fact that they are in a natural position of humility because, say, the pastor was always given everything in life and will hence always view himself as a spoiled brat, missing out on the accomplishments which other individuals must work hard for and earn all on their own like… adults? Yep. An abuser can resent you merely for being humble or displaying a measure of vulnerability. But in reality, it is actually a compliment in disguise that the abuser is sending to their targets. It is as if the abuser were to go out of their way and paint a big red sign that reads, “You have something that I do not have so I am going to point that out to you and everyone by attempting to hurt you with this big red sign, because you have the kind of power that I only ever dream of having; after all I am an infant trapped in the body of an adult”. Cool sign, right?


So whenever an abuser attempts to shame you or hurt your feelings or try to control some aspect of you — you can be sure that they are telling on themselves concerning what they do not like about themselves or lack in themselves but that you possess. Naturally, they are very jealous of this and therefore must control you, the target, because you are a threat to them and their week sense of self-worth. They will do this in order to gain some kind of upper hand using abusive behaviour, in this case: ridicule. Then they will use that abusive treatment in order to manipulate or control you into a state of guilt or submissiveness. They do this for a sense of superiority or moral authority over their targets in order to artificially create a feeling of righteousness, but a false righteousness due to the fact that this “righteousness” depends entirely upon the expense of another. Regardless, this will then feed their ill-founded pride or sense of self-worth, when in fact they are not facing their own reality concerning their own personal individual situation, or luck. They deny or do their best to avoid facing their true emotions or feelings and thoughts concerning their true state of reality, whether it be biological form, intelligence quotient, social class, material wealth, popularity, or anything usually concerning more shallow aspects of life, but can also extend to others’ ability to love and trust — they see this as a sign of weakness, you see; worthy of being exploited or abused, rather. Beautiful little creatures, aren’t they? 

Because they are afraid to look truthfully within themselves, and because this reality irritates them: they do not have a good perception of themselves — it is for this reason that they must make others feel bad. Usually because those other targets in fact do possess the kind of power or skill or asset that they wish they could possess but in fact do not possess. What’s even better is that they believe in the delusion that they are deserving of these good qualities which others possess. This is why we classify these abusers as having personality disorders. Because ‘while the light is off they claim that it is on’. Their thinking is literally insane; twisted; backwards. They have trained their brains to think in this faulty manner in order to survive and maintain a delusional perception of themselves which is accepting; delusional yes, but accepting nonetheless.

If you think that this logical thinking is faulty and insane, that is because thinking in this way is insane. No normal man or woman would naturally think of these things. However, once experienced enough and the veil of their faulty “reasoning” is lifted and they are exposed for what they are: Giant Spaghetti Monsters (mostly), it then becomes quite effortless to beat them at their own little games, because… what natural healthy loving adult cannot out-smart a five-year-old, really? This truly is one of the biggest secrets concerning these nasty ass little vindictive vampires. Just think of what you would not normally think and, chances are, that’s basically what’s going on. Its crazy. But if you can visualize inserting a five-year-old into the body of an adult, whenever that “adult” abuser speaks to you with their nasty little manipulative words and vocal tones, you’ll know exactly what to look for, question, disbelieve, and most importantly: IGNORE.  

But why do abusers perceive themselves in this way? It is either due to the fact that they have chosen to be this way deliberately from the get go; for some karmic reason or another they simply possess a low-level rotten quality of spirit which cannot differentiate between quality of virtues like, say, caged-in barking dogs vs wilderness Songbirds [which is more virtuous? An abuser will choose the most obvious virtue: the one which can be used to cause the most abuse. (Songbirds, clearly.)]. So naturally they will want to spread their disease onto other illustrious peace-loving free spirits and put out that bright shining flame just like good little excessively rash firemen would do; or like cancer cells do to other healthy cells in the human body. Or the other reason for why abusers enjoy inflicting abuse onto others might be because they themselves have been shaped by other poisonous social forces in their lives, most likely due to their parents and early childhood family relations. As a result they have been taught to treat other people in that way. This is why the cover image of this blog is of a baby having a tantrum with spaghetti all over the baby’s face, because that’s where the abuse starts:

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“Abuse starts in the highly sensitive and vulnerable infant, which grows up to become anything but vulnerable or sensitive however remains a child nonetheless, trapped inside the body of an adult. Imagine asking an infant to behave like an adult. Who in their right mind would ever ask such a thing of a child? Confusing, right? This is what we are dealing with here, folks.” 

Therein lie the problematic implications of their disorder. So of course they will abuse others because: they were shaped by abuse… (2 + 2 = 4). But somewhere deep deep deep down inside of each and every single one of us beyond genetics and genetic memory is a man or a woman’s free will to choose. But they have already made their choice. And they will continue to make the same choice again and again and again like cows following one another along the cattle pathway through the field to the slaughterhouse, because that is all that they have ever known or chosen.

“They feel a profoundly deep sense of shame on account of their own experience from being abused by others who allegedly “value” them that they must HIDE at all costs this terrorizing agonizing shame (which includes those around them) — lest they risk allowing themselves to be or to be seen as vulnerable like the children that they are but deny to all, hence (in their mind) inviting more abuse into their lives. Because that is what they would do. Because: that is what others did/do to them. Instead of fighting abuse with love, abusers fight love with abuse.”

( 2 + 2 = 4 )


They want you to be a scapegoat for THEIR evils and hate and anger issues concerning their own obsession with the illusion of perfectionism. They are fakers, and they know it. Because of this they must have it so that everyone around them is also a faker or else if those surrounding them were not “like them”… what would that mean? It would mean that they are the one who is problematic and plagued by a sick personality disorder. That’s the reason why they accuse you first of being the sole problem, when in fact you are not the sole problem. They initiate and feed the flames of arguments because they thrive off of conflict, as they realize that they are the one causing the conflict so by drawing in the target they drain the target’s energy from them while acting a sadass five year old role. They leave behind a trail of broken spirits and shattered hearts of glass all over the fucking place. But because they are so obsessed with their own false projection of perfectionism they must not allow for one iota of a single moment to be perceived of as anything less than “perfect” in the eyes of all those who are watching. This of course says nothing about their behaviour behind closed doors.


They want you to feel guilty; that you are ‘wrong’; that you are ‘bad’; that you have a ‘mental problem’, even when there is hardly much wrong with you, if at all — they take great satisfaction in this. It has been said that we can judge the character of a man or a woman by the manner in which they choose to treat animals, but with an abuser people actually become less important than animals, and animals become less important than objects… perhaps worthy of making a profit, but that’s about it. As a good friend once mentioned to me, “Don’t be sorry… Just don’t do it again.” And if we really think about it, that statement has profound meaning and substance, meaning and substance that an abuser will never truly comprehend or put into practice even if their lives depended on it, which, let’s face it… it does.

For example, one fine sunny day while in church an abuser might consider you to be ‘The Best’ because you are willingly participating within the confines of their preferred conditional ‘love’ circus, but the moment that you choose that religion is not for you, you are suddenly considered to have some miraculous form of a ‘mental disease’ bestowed upon you by the grace of their choice of a god. The best allegory I have managed to come up with in order to properly convey the nature of these kinds of abusers is the term Giant Babies (aka: Giant Spaghetti Monsters); a vivid term which also recalls the pleasant alien creature in the Hollywood film, Aliens (1979). A truly insidiously terrorizing creature, really.

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The measure of the likes of an abuser’s joy or reality depends entirely upon the self-doubt and suffering of others; you cannot simply be your own free man or woman — especially when you are NOT a public servant — without the conditional attachments of exterior praise or punishment that abusers have already decided for you way in advance in spite of ethical concerns which not only apply locally but also globally. Hey, we can’t steer the Titanic away from a deadly iceberg or submarine (obviously) using a pair of butterfly wings overnight now, can we? You must conform or be forced to conform to a very limited black and white paradigm. Of course force-fitting anyone who stands out in any way into such a polarity of thought is a sure tell as to the not-so-sophisticated breadth of an abuser’s brain power (in this case, a computing power of 2, but no more; compared to, say, a computing power of 100 or 100, 000). Treating others in this quite limiting manner is like a narcotic drug for the abuser. Its simple (minded) and effective. They have no other means (no pun intended) to feel ‘whole’ or ‘worthy’ than to subject others into feelings of inferiority, rather than simply mind their own goddamn business, keep to themselves, and generate their own self-worth, because in reality they have none or very little at best, and they know it.

Abusers will trick their targets into uneasy situations by either showing up unannounced or in disguise, to initiate unjustified violence upon their targets, spy on them, read their private documents or emails, report their freedom of expression on social media in order to premeditatedly sabotage that freedom of expression by simply assuming the worst in their target’s use of words like, say, ‘faggot‘, when in reality there are many other allegorical applications to this rather fascinating word (remember: abusers project onto others, so we can almost bet our bottom dollar that they will usually tend to assume the worst in any given situation; now isn’t that great?); they will violate the boundary of privacy upon which the honour between healthy individuals depends, and by extension, healthy communities. They will project and call their targets nasty dirty little rotten names, especially behind their targets’ backs, and label those targets in order to force-fit them into the abuser’s very narrow-minded minuscule pathetic little box of perception or judgement, which has little to no scope beyond the abuser’s immediate vicinity.

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They will punish you for reaching out for help or even for having fallen in love with them, then they will lie about the fact that they know that you are reaching out for help or that you are in love with them and claim instead that you are acting violent and physically abusive and intimidating towards them with as peaceful of a thing as expressing yourself using… texts (words on a computer screen)! Then pretend like nothing is wrong and that everything is as right as rain in the world, because, hey… abusers are infallible, especially in their own eyes.

While being targeted by an abuser’s brilliant mighty tort, the most important thing for that amazing abuser’s wellbeing is so that you suffer and that you continually remain disproportionately treated; if you step out of line one or two steps, they will ensure that you are punished as though you stepped out of line ten or twenty steps, and they are great at acting like sad little helpless victims too, especially if they are gender-favoured by the iron first of the system in which they reign. They will lie and accuse you of being something that you are not, or accuse you of doing or saying something that you did not do or say, and even if you have the right to act differently or defensively due to an unreasonable and unfair treatment towards you, the target, they will not bother to even begin to consider your circumstances or make any real measure of effort to understand your point of view. Instead, they will cram you into a narrow little bird cage in order to claim their own (false) sense of alleged ‘security’ and (false) sense of ‘self-esteem’ or ‘pride’. Heck, they don’t even want you driving on the same public road as they do! They are totally insane, and can barely manage to hold the sensitivity of a piece of shit.

As their target, it is paramount for the abuser that you perceive yourself as somehow ‘wrong’ because this determines their own perception of being ‘right’; they cannot be convinced of their own perception independent from proving you wrong first. Sounds crazy, right? Well, that’s because it is crazy. It matters more to them that they go out of their way to prove that others are wrong rather than simply act independently on their own convictions or observations. They feed off of this like mosquitos feed off of blood: without taking away from an exterior source of energy they simply cannot survive. The fact that they behave in this way is another sure tell that, as their target, you are far more important to them than they are to themselves. This is rather quite sad and pathetic indeed. Should they simply allow you to be, to exist freely, to speak your own original mind, it would be too much for them to bear because you would be the very embodiment of everything that they are not (intelligence, mostly). They simply cannot handle this kind of a living breathing walking reminder, as it causes much too much cognitive dissonance and because they are so concerned with exterior sources of energy they define themselves by everything that others do or have — not by what they choose for themselves. This is a denial mechanism for a brain of lower IQ because deep down inside the abuser’s subconscious mind is in some way aware of the lower quality of their truly horrible roles in society. The true nature of their souls hearts and minds is simply too much for the average human being to process or face up to after living an entire life of denial and mediocre thought. To face this quality of their own stunted growth of character or spirit would be too great a stress to their parameters of what they consider to be reality (‘La La Land’), at the detriment of that reality as well as themselves; like a person who invests all of their beliefs resources money interest and power into the delusional foundations of a house of cards which inevitably crumbles down at once, and themselves along with it. Castles made of sand fall into the sea, eventually.

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Castles made of sand fall into the sea eventually. ~Jimmi Hendrix

Its sad. But can we blame these Giant Babies for being the giant babies that they are, really? If we are lucky, the abuser will go out of their way to identify with us and accuse us of being the abuser or even better: accuse us of identifying them as the abuser, first!

There’s nothing quite like being first.

They will gang up on anyone who or anything that stands out of the status quo while seeking validation from those who share their narrow-minded disease. Like asking a bunch of redteam players to compliment one another on how gloriously blue and green and purple and pink each one of them is, when in reality red cannot be qualified in any real way as such. This delusional manner of flattery can only temporarily satisfy shallow needs for short-term gains. They will require more and more and more of this fictitious praise from their own choir such as appears to be necessary for the likes of Presidents and Kings or Queens or Dignitaries who receive ‘praise’ from their very own subjects, instead of accepting their true mortal fallible monster nature; then build upon this true yet unpleasant quality towards self-improvement for the sake of oneself AND others. Sorta like starting a garden from a pile of fertile compost.

Hasn’t that ever occurred to you, man… Sir?

You see, spoiled children want their dessert first, not the other way around — and if anyone tries to take that dessert away from them, they will sabotage the whole fucking meal, or (hopefully)… starve themselves to death.

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For more super fun reading on this disturbing and totally not boring topic, visit the following link:

Abusive Narcissistic Psychopaths

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“Well said Curtis , so accurate!”

~ Trevor

“Society is making more and more people who don’t have healthy emotional cycles in place . People with personality disorders aren’t bad people they are just stuck in behaviour loops that make them behave badly. Think of them like computers with corrupted files . We all have traits and some have them to the point where they become disorders. We have neuroplasticity so we can change these things , change our behaviours by changing the reaction loops and wiring.”

~ Pat

“You nailed it… I have come to believe many are insanely scarred too, and so terrified and lacking in confidence themselves that all the crap they do is a futile attempt to control the universe and be safe…”

~ Laura

“My older sister is very much like that. It’s all about control with her. She likes to keep animals and people both in boxes and make them stay exactly where they are and how they are. In the case of people, the boxes are metaphorical, she has almost a phobia about people changing as they get older. With animals, however, she will keep them in pet carriers and boxes until they go insane. I called animal control on her twice when we were living in the same city. She tortures plants to death by keeping them in containers juuust too small for them to get enough nutrients. Then she gets angry at the plants for turning yellow and dying.”

~ Gayla

“Wow! It’s like you were a fly on the wall of my previous relationship.”

~ Sandra

“They want pitty, but show no regard for your pain.”

~ Mskim

“This is true – the way they are – the definition of misery loves company, but they are dishonest about it. I do believe they get some kind of relief from spewing their poison on those who are unlucky enough to care about them. They fool us because we can sense their pain, which is confusing when they are, at that same time, purposely causing us pain. This is the sympathy I can still muster for them, but it is wasted. Too dangerous to try to help them because once you know what they are about, they will ratchet up their attacks on you. Such a paradox. Distance is your friend…”

~ Julia

“Hate and abuse are natural reactions to fear and vulnerability… if you’re a shitty human.”

~ Lemurian

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Gods

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While some things are known, most things are not known. When I wake up in the morning, I look around, and I see a bunch of trees. On each one of those trees are thousands if not hundreds of thousands if not perhaps millions of leaves or needles. Then I look around at night and see an endless number of stars in our sky. Then I contemplate the grains of sand on all the beaches of every possible planet out there in the universe and the universe of universes; the multi-verse. I think of all the different languages in the world and all the different people and their ideas, all the different types of animals, bird species, marine life and perhaps even (likely) intelligent alien life out there in the cosmos. I also see how death is necessary for life; it very well could be that life can only be possible if there is also death attached to that life, in an endless cycle of cradle to grave. Perhaps one day we will have the ability to escape death, but for now it certainly appears to be the other way around…

So when I close my eyes I contemplate the vast number of these things, and although there is no way to know for sure, after having explored monotheism for many years of my life, the sheer endless number of things out there persuades me to consider that God is more like us than we are led to believe; than most people might think in our short little lifetimes. It seems that if indeed we were created “in his image”, that image is infinite in number just as every other creature or thing appears to be. So in my mind I understand that God is in fact a body of many gods, endless in number and strengths and talents, very likely mortal just as we are, just as our planet is, just as our sun is, and the universe or the multi-verses of multi-verses themselves.

There will always be a bigger fish or a number of smaller fish ready to bring that bigger fish down. Alas, the only constant is change itself. As above, so below. So it is with human beings. Why wouldn’t it be the same with the gods?

I wouldn’t even be surprised if these gods look to us for answers to the questions which they themselves cannot ever seem to find.

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